These are the adjectives that Melissa chose to describe me last night. She said that she saw the sparkle in my eye and realized that I was born to be a Traveller. It takes one to know one, I guess. Kerry has mentioned to me before that she thinks that I’m “meant to go around the world sharing my joy and wisdom”. She’s very much a homebody, but she’s good at reading people. I knew it, I guess, but I just never thought it really possible. Money worries and attachments have always made me feel that it’s too far out of my grasp.

I’m so elated. Melissa was able to describe exactly what I’ve been trying to express about myself for years. I want to do it! I want to go everywhere. I’ll sell everything that I own. I don’t really care about that stuff. I need to see the world at my own pace! I think a lot about my great grandmother and how she’s 95 and still on the go. She’s been alone since her third husband died years and years ago, and after that she’d “run from any man that even looked in her direction.” Even my father’s grandmother was the same way. She lived alone after her husband died and was very much an independent soul. I’d rather do without the dead husbands… or any husbands for that matter. I think both of my great grandmothers would be proud that I feel that way. I may just have a child if I ever grow up enough to. I’ve always thought that I might want children, but never thought I’d be mature in time enough to do it. Now, I actually see the possibility for lots and lots of maturity. I’m even excited about it.

I’m sure that all of the mental blocks that I have are because I’m too stagnet. Vacations don’t do it for me (the word, itself, even kind of depresses me). They’re too short and I don’t make a good tourist. I’m not much of a shopper and I never get as much out of planning as I do complete spontaneity. I haven’t gotten it out of my system. Not by any stretch. I have too far to go, too many people to meet and too much to see. Thursday’s child, indeed (funny, I always thought that having “far to go” meant that Thursday’s child is behind all the other days… now I see it in a whole new light).

I’m working on getting my passport right now. To have it in my hands will be so liberating. After I get my degree, I’m going to get my visa . I have one year to prepare. Melissa will be exactly what I need to keep me motivated and working toward pulling it off. I can’t wait for you to meet her and Kerry. You’re going to love them.

As much as I hate stupid Californians, I have to admit that I’m really glad that I came. I couldn’t explain it then, but now I know why. My universe is finally expanding back into the one I knew as a child.

Tattoo tattoo… there won’t be a more perfect time!

I love you and I can’t wait until next week!!!